Everything you need to get you there is available to you. He wouldn’t plant something there that you can’t do.
When you get peaceful, that’s when you’ll access it.
The only way to get peaceful is to admit how franticfranticfrantic you are. How scared you are. How frustrated. Lost. Without answers. And to accept that spinning it over and over again in your head is not the way out.
Dropping into the middle of all of that spin and heading toward the light–that’s the way out.
It’s like this–duck underneath all of the stuff going through your mind. Imagine you’re in a collapsed tunnel and there are pockets of oxygen underneath it all. Duck your head and crawl out. See that light over there? Crawl in that direction.
“Hold your face to the light, though for the moment you cannot see.”–Bill Wilson
Help is on the way.
Your job: accept, duck, crawl toward the light. Trust that you’ll get exactly what you need when you need it. You only have to trust enough. You don’t have to get all Mother Teresa zen about it.
God’s job: everything you can’t do.
If you can’t do it, ask for help. You lack nothing. You have enough. You have everything you need right now.
If you fuck it up, it’s all good. Nothing is permanent. Not bliss. Not failure. Keep walking.